Stab.
“Ouch!” I cried out and opened my eyes. I was in a room decorated
with magnolia. The paintings that draped the bamboo walls were all of different
shades of magnolia. There were even a few vases containing that particular
flower. I wondered . . .
Stab.
“Ow!” I screamed in pain once more.
“Sorry, but I have to try to calm your nerves,” a familiar voice
muttered.
I blinked a couple of times and looked at the man examining
my wrist once, twice and then a third time. “S-S-S-Salim?” I stammered.
“Wh-wh-wh-what brings you here?” He took another needle and without a warning,
he poked it right in my skin. “Ow,” I
moaned.
“Oh, stop whining,” he sighed while rolling his eyes, “and
this is why I prefer poisoning than healing. Just pure, lovely silence.”
“What exactly happened after I
was—“
“Nothing of your concern,” he interrupted
me and took out one of the needles. “Just made sure they were subject to their
demise.”
“Oh . . .”
As he reached into his medicine
bag, he muttered, “I believe that we still had an agreement. You were to tell
me of your dreams, so I can help you find a cure.”
“I thought you disliked healing
others,” I informed him.
“But I do like solving problems,”
he countered, “and you should . . . honour your agreement.”
“Then . . . what of that boy
suffering from the same illness as me?”
“He . . . should be . . . under
control, at least for now,” Salim murmured.
“But these dreams . . . are
uncontrollable.” I let him know. “They strike when they want, and I lose count
of time.”
Without any warning, Salim
snatched the last needle from my wrist and tossed it in his bag. He sifted
through that bag to find some paper, brush, and some ink. “Continue on,” he
instructed.
I took a moment to wonder how
much I should reveal to him. Was it safe to let him know everything? Nestor had
said that I should keep everything to myself. Speaking of Nestor, I had not
heard from him lately. He must have been busy sorting out matters in Slianvwi,
protecting that little Prince, so he had not responded to my last letter. In
fact, I should have updated Nestor that I was in Kosei. He deserved to know
where I was. He was to be trusted, right? Then what of Salim? Was this poison
master . . . credible?
“Was that all?” he pressed on. “I
am sure you remember some details.”
Since I learned a bit of the boy,
I decided to reply, “The dreams are very confusing. I feel like . . . I’m the
person I’m dreaming about. Frankly, I do believe . . . that I may be . . .
her.”
“Oh . . . so it is a girl?”
“Yes . . . a woman.”
“What does she look like?”
“Koseian. She is probably
wealthy, regal, and she seems well-loved,” I clarified. “What about the boy?
What sort of monster did he dream of?”
“He dreamt of a man . . . of
great power. Was the woman that you dreamt of quite powerful as well?”
The woman I just dreamt about . .
. she did not seem like the usual one. She had so much hate and jealousy buried
within her. Moreover, she was in love with that man, that man that . . . that
other lady seemed to despise . . . at least . . . that was what it seemed. Who
was this other lady then that wanted to suffocate me? What was her
significance? Why did she appear after that . . . creepy, yet beautiful lady .
. .
“Salim . . .” I unexpectedly
noted after taking a glimpse outside and noticing that magnolia trees too filled
the landscape. I must be in one of the rooms that that woman resided. “There is
a woman . . . that lives here. Am I right?”
“Oh . . . you mean Princess Sachi?”
“Princess Sachi? I do not believe
that I have ever . . . heard of—“
“She is Chancellor Nagasawe’s second
oldest daughter.”
The role of the chancellor was to
be in charge of all of the officials, and he was the closest to the Emperor of
Kosei besides the lords of each province. If the Emperor fell ill, he would
temporarily substitute, and in the situation that the Emperor was to pass away,
the chancellor would reveal the Emperor’s will and for the first few months,
the chancellor would guide the new Emperor. From what the Queen had taught me,
I should have remembered who the Chancellor’s sons and daughters were, except, I
had no recollection of Chancellor Nagasawe having three daughters. I was told
that he had two sons and two daughters. One of the daughters was married to a
nobleman in Aquilla, whereas the other had wedded Prince Juro despite their
seven-year age gap. Why was it, then, that the second daughter was never
mentioned? Did the people hide her on purpose? Was there some sort of scandal
related to her?
My eyes wandered towards Salim’s,
and after a few seconds, he remarked, “I know what you are thinking. To answer
your question, Princess Sachi lives in seclusion. She prefers to remain hidden
from the court, and that is most likely for the better.” At the snap of Salim’s
fingers, the wooden door of this room slid open and in came Ashur with a bucket
of cold water plus a towel. Before I could even greet Ashur properly, Salim
instructed to Ashur, “Remember to change the water once it becomes warm. These
blood marks must heal faster and must not be permanent.”
Ashur nodded while agreeing,
“Yes, I understand.”
Salim now proceeded to leave, but
I uttered, “Is she . . . emotionally unstable?”
Unfortunately, Salim ignored me
and made his way out. Ashur and I were left in this lonely, bland room. Really,
there was nothing much to this place besides the lovely flowers blossoming
outside. Though paintings hung from the wall, those were fading in colour, and
the overabundance of magnolia felt suffocating and made this place even
lonelier.
“I apologize, Princess, if this
will be too cold,” Ashur announced prior to icing my neck. I let out a tiny
gasp, causing Ashur to murmur, “Sorry.”
“There is no need to apologize,”
I answered. “You were not the one that caused these marks.”
“I apologize on behalf of
Princess Sachi as well,” he said quietly as his head hung low. He was sitting
with his back straight and feet tucked under his legs. His hands were gently
putting pressing against my neck, making sure that I felt the least amount of
pain as possible, which was far too different from Salim. “She can be a
difficult patient.”
“Patient?” I wondered.
“Sorry,” he apologized again. “I
believe I am not allowed to tell you more.”
“There is . . . something wrong
with her mind, am I correct?” I tried guessing.
“I . . . really cannot say.”
“Oh please, Ashur,” I kept
urging, “I should, at least, understand why I was attacked by her.”
Ashur only gave me a sympathetic
look as he continued to look after me. In fact, every so often, he would change
the towels to maintain the right temperature, and after a while, the cold
towels became warm ones—the standard way of healing bruises. At the end, he
brushed some sort of ointment on my neck before informing me, “I beg you,
Princess, please stay away from Princess Sachi. She is not one to be reckoned
with. I will stand guard outside this room to make sure no one disturbs you and
to check on your blood marks. My master has said that you should stay the whole
night here.”
“But . . . I thought I was to
return for dinner?” I confirmed.
“Oh . . . our Lord already knows
of your absence.”
I had no idea why I asked this, but
I still did: “W-w-w-was he irritated?”
“That I am unsure of,” he
responded rather coolly. “Perhaps, it would be best if you confirmed with
Master Salim? Should I ask him for you?”
“O-o-oh no!” I urged. “I-i-it’s
nothing important.”
“All right then. Rest well, Your
Highness.”
With that word, Ashur left me
here in this creepy room. I tried closing my eyes to force myself to sleep, yet
I kept wondering about what that lady had told me. I was his new toy? How many “toys”
did he have then? When would I be abandoned? Until I was of no use to him? Yes,
I was sure that that would be the case, but I was fine with that resolution. I
was using him too to survive. We were both parasites. We did what we had to do
to live, and as for that woman, she was doing what she needed to do to survive
as well? By killing me?
You will learn! You who.re! Don’t you dare steal him from me! You
witch!
Those eyes of hers, I would never
forget. Those hands of hers, I would fear.
Die! Die! Die! You will never take him away from me! You will never,
ever have him!
Immediately, I opened my eyes and
got out of the bed. My neck and my throat were still throbbing, yet my instincts
were telling me to escape. I couldn’t stay here longer. The longer I was here,
the more it seemed like I would be cursed by her. There was just something
about Princess Sachi that was off. If only I could figure out what . . .
Now, I just had to think of my
escape route. If I could see the outside, then this window could have some sort
of opening. Unlike the windows at Urcis, these were more like doors that had
translucent paper covering hollow wooden blocks. From the way most Koseian palaces
were designed, the whole room could have a panoramic view of a garden. Now,
Ashur could not be guarding all areas the whole time, and so I concluded that
he must have been patrolling the area from time to time. If I could figure out
his rhythm, then I knew which side I could escape from.
This time, I stood up and closed
my eyes to listen carefully for Ashur’s footsteps. He had a tendency of walking
rather quickly, which worked to my disadvantage. It would take me at least ten
seconds to slide this door open and then I would at most, get a head start of
five seconds. Judging that he was still a young kid, I could maybe add another
ten seconds to be ahead of him. Even then, these seconds were all worth it.
This area of the palace was just too unhealthy for me.
Step. Step. Skip. Skip. Step.
Skip. Skip . . .
Now!
I instantly pushed the door to
the side, picked up the edge of my skirt, and ran straight ahead in my bare
feet. I could hear Ashur shouting for me to stop and to come back. He said I
was heading in the wrong direction. Still, it was too late for me to even
listen to him since by the time I caught my breath, I realized that I was in
the middle of this crazy magnolia forest. Simply put, I was lost.
Lifting my head up to examine my
surroundings, I gave out a sigh. Now what was I supposed to do? Run back? That
seemed so silly. How was I going to find my way back then?
My heel shifted as I unexpectedly
heard the sound of whimpering. I followed the sound of a girl crying without
thinking, and just as I pushed back a branch, I noticed who was crying. It was
. . . Princess Sachi. Another peek revealed that she was with a man, and that
man happened to be Kuro. He was holding onto her despite her pounding his
chest. She was now demanding where he had went and why he had to find another
lady.
“Do you not love me anymore?”
Princess Sachi voiced in a scratchy tone. She glanced up at him with the
sweetest, loveliest pair of eyes that I had ever witnessed. If I were a man, I
would have even been charmed by her. “Is that why you left before too?” she questioned
while thrashing her fists harder at him, who stayed very, very still. “Why?
Why? Why?” she kept screaming until Kuro held onto one of her wrists.
“Stop,” he demanded before
pulling her towards him. My hand pressed against my chest as I watched him
stroke her hair, mumbling, “Sorry. I am truly sorry.”
Accidentally, I had let one of my
feet slip, causing a rattling noise. Kuro’s eyes instantly ventured in my
direction, and I knew he had seen me. He was glaring at me so viciously that I
was worried that he would hurt me in some way, so I hid behind a tree trunk as
fast as I could. Despite knowing that this was a foolish tactic, I had no other
choice. I just prayed that he would not make a fool out of me in public.
Please, Kuro, I chanted in my head. Please . . . don’t . . . come here.
Instead, I
heard the rustling of the leaves, and I could almost smell his scent. However,
he stopped abruptly, and surprised me by calling out to Princess Sachi, “Let us
return to your chamber.”
I felt a
sense of bitterness slide down my throat and into my pounding chest.
Remembering to breathe, I inhaled very deeply and then exhaled slowly. Calm
down, Renelle, I reminded myself. It was just Kuro. Right. And whatever he does
is none of my business, I told myself. So what if he was to bed her? He was entitled
to many, many female encounters. He was allowed to love whoever he pleased, and
whoever that he adored was nothing that I should care about at all.
Then . . .
why did my chest hurt so much? Why did I feel like crying?
I threw a
punch at the tree trunk before burying my head in my arms. Renelle, you
promised that you wouldn’t cry anymore. You are stronger than that, I said to
myself. You shouldn’t even be caring about something so trivial. You have to
focus on returning to Urcis. You should not even . . .
I will never love you.
The tears
just would not stop, and I had inkling that my body was responding to someone
else’s emotions. I wouldn’t be crying so easily. I wouldn’t even be this
emotional, especially towards someone like Kuro. He and I were more like business
partners. There was no way that I could have developed feelings for him so
quickly, yet I felt the same way when I saw what Thayne and Adriana were doing.
What was happening to me then? What would be wise for me to do now?
Frankly, I wasn’t
sure. I just knew that I had to release these feelings quickly, and then I
would be fine once again. I would be back to normal, and that . . . would be
nice.
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